Monday, March 24
Even up to now... i feel like crying still. Had cleared out everythin with hubby, feeling very tired, physically. Hubby, thanks fer tryin to make me smile when i didnt do my part in makin u smile. Even though u keep on sayin that im good enough being a gf, i find that im not understanding enough. I just dont knoe why, when it comes to hubby, i just tend to get more tense up. Hubby, dont think that im good gf when i wanna buy u somethin. Buyin u somethin doesnt prove that im a good gf but neither can i define a good gf. ARGH i doesnt knoe wat i really want seriously. Once and for all: i find myself lousy being hubby's baby. Im tryin so hard to improve myself but to no avail. Hubby, u just make me so love in u. Oh and i just remembered that i once let hubby down -.-.-.-.- how can i be such a lousy gf zzzzzz im feelin more and more useless le. Hubby, y is this stage so hard to get through, long distance relationship with lotsa crap -.- i think we are the only couple that have so much crap yet standing strong still with firm bonds. The good thing is we have never had a serious quarrel nor arguements with each other, at least both of us knoes how to control our own temper. Hubbby, u said that u are happy when i mention ur name in my blog and u said that u are going to update it but u didnt do snythin to ur blog up to now when i already updated 2 posts since u last said u are going to update ur's. Arsehole hubby but the arsehole hubby that i loves so much <3
ps. sorry fer makin u to wait fer my hubby, Joel
The only word fer me is I
The sweetest word fer me is LOVE
The only one for me is YOU
Aust: 12:46 AM, 2 hurs ahead of Sg
Friday, March 14
Weeeee~~ weeeee~~ weeeeeee~~~~ i cant wait to get back to HK on June JUne JUNe JUNEEEE~ that i even filled up my Outgoing Passenger Card-Australia just now upon receiving it this afternoon~~ even though i have to fill it up 3 months lata which is on the 17th of June. I have filled up every single qns in the card and i even signed it as though im ready to go off at any time lols~ I have nv been this excited to get back to HK since im going back every year. BUT its diff this year, my hubby's WHOLE family is going to HK too lalalala~~ lols and i will be with them throughout their trip in HK WeEeEeEeEe~~ And hubby is preparing his so-called the JOJO itenary lols In addition, my aunt, cousin and her BF is going to HK too and most probably join the group as her bf, Craig is going to hk fer his first time. At the same time, they are going to pass me my last year's bday present and i hope it's Victoria Secret again lalala~ i cant to meet them esp meetin my hubby's family lols. Have my e-ticket with me now, lookin at it as though the days will forward lols. Im not the only 1 gettin excited abt it, even hubby and hubby's mami, she's so cute lols. All thanks to my Aunt Stella, that im able to go back to hk this June. Initally when i went back to HK end of last yr, Aunt Stella and Laura Cousin wasnt there, instead they are going on this JUNE thus my Daddy told me to go back on this JUNE again as they are quite close despite we are distant apart. With this chance to go back to hk, how can i not request not going back to SG too? lols and my mami cant forbid me frm going bcox daddy is the 1 who told me to go back hk to meet them and go SHOPPPPIN again~~~
Hubby, do u believe in somethin? We are left with 94 days to hug each other again yoohooo~~ which we thought we have to wait fer another 10 months to hug each other~~ Hubby, let's work towards to our goal ok?
我好掛住你~~ 你係我ge所有,論世界有幾大我地ge心永不分開,係埋一起~ღ
我宜家覺得我係呢個世界上最幸福ge baby丫`ღ
我愛你,老公!ღ
The only word fer me is I
The sweetest word fer me is LOVE
The only one for me is YOU
Aust: 8:57 PM, 2 hurs ahead of Sg
Friday, March 7
The only word fer me is I
The sweetest word fer me is LOVE
The only one for me is YOU
Aust: 9:12 PM, 2 hurs ahead of Sg
I am missing hubby so much so much now. After our long talk last night (in fact i was preparing my account test) I realised that im such a selfish gf, such a useless gf. Hubby, thank you so much fer tryin to accept my change wor even though it is not a positive change. Hubby~ I promise that i will try to change to a better gf and a better person. Neither do i wanna change, i wan the old me back. Hubby, thanks fer teachin me so much so much despite Im in such a state now. Hubby, sori3 fer everythin, sori3 fer being such a stupid gf and such a selfish gf. Hubby, i promise u that i will try to learn to have my own stand and not make hubby worry and of cox to think of hubby's intention. Hubby, thanks fer not leaving me although im changing, thanks fer your love and caring when i need it and your teacing to turn me a better person. we will perserve this long distance relationship oke despite all those obstacles. I dunno how to describle the feeling im havin but it is really a diff feeling from last year. Hubby~~~ lets maintain our relationship and let it last long oke? And i will be back real soon, it's just 3 months from now wor and we can hug and do watsoeva we like like how we used to be.
I Love You Hubby~
The only word fer me is I
The sweetest word fer me is LOVE
The only one for me is YOU
Aust: 8:10 PM, 2 hurs ahead of Sg
Saturday, March 1
Its been ages ago since i last blogged. And i knew that hubby has been waitin fer my post. How shld i start frm? What shld i say abt? I was so sad and so surprised that a relationship can be so weak. I am so afraid, afraid that u will burst out 1 day. What can i do to make u feel more secure? I dunno, that is the hardest thing abt long distant when u cant do anythin to help the relationship. I feel so useless I feel that im givin u misery instead of happiness and that is bad enough. Last year wasnt that tough but it is so much now and its million times tougher. Hubby I Love You and i hope u do really trust and believe me and moat importantly, u feels the same way too. Hubby, a relationship is between 2 person not 1, so pls let me build up this relationship tgt with u rather than u suffering alone. Hubby. i do hope that when times to come, if the same thing happens again, I hope that we will not repeat wat we had gone through and we will have a better sentiment abt it. Hubby I do Love You and hope that u fully understand wat i means and that is really what i mean.
The only word fer me is I
The sweetest word fer me is LOVE
The only one for me is YOU
Aust: 10:50 PM, 2 hurs ahead of Sg
